My hubby has posted! 3 posts, you gotta catch up!
He's got FAMILY PICTURES!! click here
My sister has written a parable on our running together, and I totally think she writes better than I.....Click here to read it
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Thursday, July 26, 2007
struggling and wrestling and venting
I'm going through another "overwhelming" period...
I hate feeling like this. Everything seems like it's out of control. It seems like I can't get a handle on the important things. (Or what I think is important)
Whenever I go through this, I am faced with very high expectations. Which can be a good thing or a bad thing. God can use it, or the enemy can use it. Right now, I am losing this battle.
I know that having high standards is what God would want for my life and for the life of my family. But of course not at the cost of peace, joy and relationships. Right now, my unachieved goals and dreams are filling me with impatience, bitterness (towards those that stand in my way) and discontenment. All of which are not God's plans for me. I am really wrestling with laying things down, giving up my dreams, and letting God work in His own timing.
I get totally overwhelmed at what lies ahead.
Homeschooling....4 children and doing it WELL. DOING IT VERY WELL.
To me schooling them is not just academics. Keeping our children home is also to fully train them in Godly character, responsibility, and loving one another.
There's so much that they need to learn...I wonder how Joe and I (when it seems like we aren't working as a team) can really do all that they need.
That's the whole "kid" thing
Then there's just everyday house chores that just lag behind. We have a beautiful backyard that isn't even getting used. It's a mess. Which in my opinion, you aren't being a good steward of God gave you if you can't even use it! I love taking care of my yard, but I can never get out there to do my duties. I can barely keep up with the basic laundry, cooking and cleaning! How am I going to add school on top??????????
AAAHHHH. I just need to go be with my daddy and let him pour into me. There's no other answer...
Thanks for putting up with my venting for today...
I hate feeling like this. Everything seems like it's out of control. It seems like I can't get a handle on the important things. (Or what I think is important)
Whenever I go through this, I am faced with very high expectations. Which can be a good thing or a bad thing. God can use it, or the enemy can use it. Right now, I am losing this battle.
I know that having high standards is what God would want for my life and for the life of my family. But of course not at the cost of peace, joy and relationships. Right now, my unachieved goals and dreams are filling me with impatience, bitterness (towards those that stand in my way) and discontenment. All of which are not God's plans for me. I am really wrestling with laying things down, giving up my dreams, and letting God work in His own timing.
I get totally overwhelmed at what lies ahead.
Homeschooling....4 children and doing it WELL. DOING IT VERY WELL.
To me schooling them is not just academics. Keeping our children home is also to fully train them in Godly character, responsibility, and loving one another.
There's so much that they need to learn...I wonder how Joe and I (when it seems like we aren't working as a team) can really do all that they need.
That's the whole "kid" thing
Then there's just everyday house chores that just lag behind. We have a beautiful backyard that isn't even getting used. It's a mess. Which in my opinion, you aren't being a good steward of God gave you if you can't even use it! I love taking care of my yard, but I can never get out there to do my duties. I can barely keep up with the basic laundry, cooking and cleaning! How am I going to add school on top??????????
AAAHHHH. I just need to go be with my daddy and let him pour into me. There's no other answer...
Thanks for putting up with my venting for today...
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Facing giants
this morning was my meeting. I finally got my 5 pound star!!
Since I've joined, i've lost 13.5 pounds....since baby.....32 pounds in total....only 20 pounds to go....
AGAIN.....
Nin and I were talking about this. I jumped off the cliff once already....I took the plunge in faith, and lost all my weight last year. That was super hard! Each step I wrestled with lies that I would fail.
Then a pregnancy and a very tough year left me right back at the beginning! Faced with the same 50 pounds to loose!!! how am I going to face it??
I totally totally use my weight loss journey as a spiritual parable to our walk with Christ.
To me, this walk is about:
Facing my giants
Facing my fears
Gathering courage to face the same hurdles
Gathering faith
Trusting God's promises
Running the race
Persevering through all trials
not growing weary in doing good, but trusting that I someday will reap a harvest....
God is now leading me in a new direction. Asking me to let him open the can of worms of......prayer.....
What is yet to come scares me. He wants to heal the hurts and wounds from all the times I prayed for Caleb's healing and it never happened. all the times that I DID trust him and "it seemed he never came through"
Then when it was all said and done....Caleb died.....
All I've cried out for is for Caleb's life and our time with him will bear fruit to give glory to the Father. But sometimes it feels like it was all in vain.
Now with God venturing me into healing my prayer life, I sense great things....if I can endure the refining that I know is coming.....
(Books reading: facing your giants by Max and Intercessory Prayer by Dutch Sheets)
Since I've joined, i've lost 13.5 pounds....since baby.....32 pounds in total....only 20 pounds to go....
AGAIN.....
Nin and I were talking about this. I jumped off the cliff once already....I took the plunge in faith, and lost all my weight last year. That was super hard! Each step I wrestled with lies that I would fail.
Then a pregnancy and a very tough year left me right back at the beginning! Faced with the same 50 pounds to loose!!! how am I going to face it??
I totally totally use my weight loss journey as a spiritual parable to our walk with Christ.
To me, this walk is about:
Facing my giants
Facing my fears
Gathering courage to face the same hurdles
Gathering faith
Trusting God's promises
Running the race
Persevering through all trials
not growing weary in doing good, but trusting that I someday will reap a harvest....
God is now leading me in a new direction. Asking me to let him open the can of worms of......prayer.....
What is yet to come scares me. He wants to heal the hurts and wounds from all the times I prayed for Caleb's healing and it never happened. all the times that I DID trust him and "it seemed he never came through"
Then when it was all said and done....Caleb died.....
All I've cried out for is for Caleb's life and our time with him will bear fruit to give glory to the Father. But sometimes it feels like it was all in vain.
Now with God venturing me into healing my prayer life, I sense great things....if I can endure the refining that I know is coming.....
(Books reading: facing your giants by Max and Intercessory Prayer by Dutch Sheets)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
pics of canada day!
Went to Auntie Stella's for Gord's birthday, visited the spray park by her new house!
This is mother figure just trying to make sure none of the grandkids get bit
This is.....yeah, these are people I don't know....
I'm sorry Daniel, these ARE your parents....just hang out there and be cool like you are in your nemo suit!!
off to the fireworks! Keeping Elishah safe from mesquitos was tricky!
Setting up...first year without Caleb. that aspect made it a hard time for me. It kept feeling like I was forgetting something or someone, but we were all there...
I remember last year that we had just found out we were pregnant with Elishah the day before the fireworks, but we couldn't tell anyone yet...
Auntie Corey, complete with kids and canada paraphenilia!
"Oh, Canada.....lalalalalalalala...."
My grown up girl!
Big baby...............
Little baby......
sorry it was 3 weeks later, but that's what we did!blessings to all!
Monday, July 16, 2007
On a scale of 1 to 5
spent the weekend at motherinlaws....she has central air!
The sickness that was going around hit me as well. I was down for 3 days. yuck.
But now that that's over, nin and I went running again together last night.
I told her that my body was sore, it was crampy and did not want to run!!! On a scale of 1 to 5 (5 being that I REALLY REALLY WANT TO RUN and my body is in good shape) I was a 1. Nin encouraged me to just try and see how far we get. I kept thinking that she would leave me behind. I kept encouraging her to go ahead. But as soon as the workout began, I was able to have a great run! We did an amazing sprint at the end that felt amazing! we pushed our bodies to the limit and then some....but we didn't die! we felt great and I felt like a 5!
Now I can see how exercise can be addictive. all those natural endorphins feel pretty good at the end of the day.
The sickness that was going around hit me as well. I was down for 3 days. yuck.
But now that that's over, nin and I went running again together last night.
I told her that my body was sore, it was crampy and did not want to run!!! On a scale of 1 to 5 (5 being that I REALLY REALLY WANT TO RUN and my body is in good shape) I was a 1. Nin encouraged me to just try and see how far we get. I kept thinking that she would leave me behind. I kept encouraging her to go ahead. But as soon as the workout began, I was able to have a great run! We did an amazing sprint at the end that felt amazing! we pushed our bodies to the limit and then some....but we didn't die! we felt great and I felt like a 5!
Now I can see how exercise can be addictive. all those natural endorphins feel pretty good at the end of the day.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
A parable in running
In this journey, many of you know, I am learning much in the spiritual through the physical. As Nin and I are running, we talk about the parallels between the two roads.
Nin has been sick (pray as you feel led) but last night, she was determined to get back on track. Of course, we were both prepared for her to be slower and not as energetic. But as she's been on sick leave, I've been running my little heart out almost every night without her. Each day brings further ground, I run longer and recover quicker. It's been a blast! I bought this running music online. It's by crystal method and it's a 45 minute non stop, warm up, workout, and cool down song. Made especially for runners.
So nin comes back last night and obviously at a different pace than I am at. (there have been times where the roles have been reversed where I'm dragging and she's all pumped.)
But this was the lesson...
It's more important to wait and walk together than it is to run ahead and go alone. I wanted to run ahead so bad, but nin couldn't with her cough and all. My MP3 player died, and if it hadn't, I would have left her behind. It was God's way of showing me this lesson. That pressing forward is important and you have to do that as part of our walk with Christ, but was can't just leave those suffering in our dust trail.
All of us have it in us to help others, we all have friends in life that could use our company, time, energy, wisdom, patience, and a kind word. If we focus on our own progress too much we are living our lives out of balance. It was nice to just walk beside nin after she gave it her all (we ran 6 posts together) It threw her into a coughing fit, but she recovered nicely. Good job Nin!
When our church went through a "transformations" small group study, I was severely challenged to stretch my boundaries. To work on our own spiritual journey's and grow in deepening our relationship with God, but also it's equally important to help someone along in their walk with God. If you can have all 3 aspects in your life, you are destined to thrive!
- Someone discipling and teaching you (mentor)
- Someone walking with you (travelling buddies)
- Someone to disciple and teach
Nin has been sick (pray as you feel led) but last night, she was determined to get back on track. Of course, we were both prepared for her to be slower and not as energetic. But as she's been on sick leave, I've been running my little heart out almost every night without her. Each day brings further ground, I run longer and recover quicker. It's been a blast! I bought this running music online. It's by crystal method and it's a 45 minute non stop, warm up, workout, and cool down song. Made especially for runners.
So nin comes back last night and obviously at a different pace than I am at. (there have been times where the roles have been reversed where I'm dragging and she's all pumped.)
But this was the lesson...
It's more important to wait and walk together than it is to run ahead and go alone. I wanted to run ahead so bad, but nin couldn't with her cough and all. My MP3 player died, and if it hadn't, I would have left her behind. It was God's way of showing me this lesson. That pressing forward is important and you have to do that as part of our walk with Christ, but was can't just leave those suffering in our dust trail.
All of us have it in us to help others, we all have friends in life that could use our company, time, energy, wisdom, patience, and a kind word. If we focus on our own progress too much we are living our lives out of balance. It was nice to just walk beside nin after she gave it her all (we ran 6 posts together) It threw her into a coughing fit, but she recovered nicely. Good job Nin!
When our church went through a "transformations" small group study, I was severely challenged to stretch my boundaries. To work on our own spiritual journey's and grow in deepening our relationship with God, but also it's equally important to help someone along in their walk with God. If you can have all 3 aspects in your life, you are destined to thrive!
- Someone discipling and teaching you (mentor)
- Someone walking with you (travelling buddies)
- Someone to disciple and teach
Saturday, July 07, 2007
My weight watchers meeting
So I went to my Weight Watchers meeting this morning and I haven't lost anything in 2 weeks...(.6 of a pound to be exact)
This is my theory. I think I'm gaining muscle. I know muscle weighs more than fat. I'm fitting into new pants and it seems like I'm loosing inches(I'm not measuring)
What do you think?
Hopefully next meeting, a chunk number will come off.....
Please pray for my running buddy (Nin) she's still sick with something viral. Her throat is on fire and she's coughing alot. She's been to the Dr. and doc says it's viral, so she just needs to wait it out. She is having a hard time just sitting and waiting for her body to recover and wants to get back into running so bad, she said she wants to go tonight, but I think she still needs rest.
What a cool storm last night heh? who was up at 3 am outside watching????
I WAS!!! Went down the street and met my dad. we were out in the wind and rain together.
This is my theory. I think I'm gaining muscle. I know muscle weighs more than fat. I'm fitting into new pants and it seems like I'm loosing inches(I'm not measuring)
What do you think?
Hopefully next meeting, a chunk number will come off.....
Please pray for my running buddy (Nin) she's still sick with something viral. Her throat is on fire and she's coughing alot. She's been to the Dr. and doc says it's viral, so she just needs to wait it out. She is having a hard time just sitting and waiting for her body to recover and wants to get back into running so bad, she said she wants to go tonight, but I think she still needs rest.
What a cool storm last night heh? who was up at 3 am outside watching????
I WAS!!! Went down the street and met my dad. we were out in the wind and rain together.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I can't help it! I'm pumped!
Okay, this is a big deal.....
Last night, I went running. I was able to run an entire crescent! Then, our regular "running strip" has a total of 11 lamp posts. it's a long straight strip that nin and I made it our goal that some day, we would run the entire strip....LAST NIGHT I DID IT! I can't believe it! And I could have kept going, but was more than happy with my accomplishment!
I also fit into 2 new pairs of cool jeans, and feel like a million bucks!
That's my good news!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)