Fitness certification and my heart

Friends had told me what to expect at my group module fitness class this weekend, but nothing can really prepare you till you're there.

We started the day on Saturday with step and high low aerobics. Our teacher took us through a full class of each, so that we knew and were familiar with taking that class. While she was teaching us through the class, she was teaching us how to teach! Then, we spent alot of the day building our own class and teaching our individual lessons to eachother.....which meant alot more step!

Sunday was a shock for a lot of us. We started 9am sharp with a bootcamp class. I think our instructor wanted to see really what we could do. I felt like I was on the biggest loser! Within 15 minutes, someone puked! Our intervals were like anything I've ever done. It was extremely challenging, but super fun too. I remember at one point, I was focusing my mind on giving birth to my babies, coaching myself through all the pain......

I had so much fun! I learned so many new things and it was very character building. People don't think that a bootcamp workout can really challenge your character, but when the rubber meets the road, you have to TELL your body to move or it just won't!

After bootcamp, we had to continue to build our own practical classes and teaching eachother. Needless to say, that today, I am walking around feeling every muscle I have in my body....I am realizing that I have muscles that I didn't know where there! Which is a bittersweet pain for me :D

I met a lot of neat people with similar goals. Which to be honest, it felt good to be around people that didn't look at you like you were a totally unbalanced person. They love to be active and it's just a part of their lifestyle. So when you tell them that you workout 4-5 times per week, they don't look at you like you're on crack.

I'm excited to start helping others. I think it's a good move to channel my focus on others and helping people rather than just doing it for me. My hubby is SOOO good and supportive. He was amazing this weekend! On Saturday, he took Faith to ballet, washed the van, picked up groceries, made crepes for lunch, cleaned the house and had supper on by the time I got home! He told me it was to show me how much he supports me in this. On Sunday, he took them to church, fed them lunch, cleaned the house again and made farmer sausage for supper. I am so blessed to have such an amazing man!!!!!! sigh......

He encouraged me to dream, to dream of all that God would have for me. Ironically......of course the way God does things.....there was a woman in my class. I did NOT LIKE HER. She just threatened me. She was a representation of a lot of hurt and I knew that. But God used her out of EVERYONE in that class to speak into me.....that made me both mad, and cry. I wanted to hate her, but God kept pouring out encouragement and love that I became friends with her!!

God is good, even tho I'm still so stubborn, weak and seem so unmoldable. He somehow breaks through.....I don't know how. But he does. I hope it has something to do with my biggest prayer.
God, don't let me go. don't let me go hard. break through whatever you need to, even if I'm kicking and screaming, I give you permission to hold my arms down and sit on me if you have to. Have your way.......have your way........even the things I'm admitting that I'm not ready to let go of yet, I WANT to let go of them. Help me, release my death grip on my pitiful, useless forms of comfort. Make me into what glorifies you........