So, my father in law comes over for supper. it was a nice chicken with potatoes, gravy...etc.....the night is nice so we decide to go to the park and then stop for icecream.
On the way to the park, I can start to feel my "heartburn" flair up. I wonder now what would have happened if I had had some pepto bismol in my purse, like I usually do. At the first sign of an "attack" (as I call it) I do whatever I can to stop it. But tonight, I didn't have anything. I knew that my supper did not go down well. It was getting stuck all through the meal. By the time we got to the park, i was in a fair bit of pain. I had 2 extra strength zantac and that was it. I needed some milk or something to help these pills go down.
Left the family at the park, drove to the nearest store to buy a milk. open it and drink it before i pay for it......the pain level goes from an 8 to a 5. ok, maybe this will pass. drive back to the park, sipping on my milk, waiting for the zantac to do something. nothing.....it starts to get worse again. My pain goes to a 9 and I start to panic. thinking about running behind a building to throw up whatever is stuck in my esophagus to ease the pain. Joe comes to check on me, and I told him what I was thinking. He told me to give it a try. ( we were a long way from home)
So here I am, behind a building, crouching down on my hands and knees throwing up into a bush......it was lovely. Being a recovering bulimic, the puke didn't bother me so much as being in public, hiding, and wondering if anyone saw me, what on earth would they think??!
No relief......pain stays at an 8/9 and I had to leave my family at the park to come home. To gulp pepto/try to eat crackers/throw up some more......now my pain is sitting at a 3 or so.
Is this what I have to look forward to? only for it to progress and get worse? God help me.
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Sunday, June 27, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
sister see sister do
I get NEW hair via my genius JILLA!!! Appointment is T-3.5hours!
2. do you miss anyone right now?
Honestly, I miss myself. I have somehows vacated life and don't know where I went. I hope I can find myself soon...and when I find me, I hope that I like who I find.
3. if you could move anywhere else, would you?
These days, moving to a secluded island where I would have no distractions, nothing calling me to pour milk, do laundry, take down xmas lights, worry about basement reno bills....etc.....so that I could actually HAVE the time to see if I can find my missing self.
4. if you could choose, what would your last meal be?
Right off the bat, a meal that wouldn't get stuck. But I would choose whole wheat spagetti topped with pinapples, onions, mushrooms, chicken, tomatoes, in a spicy curry sauce with a side of bread dipped in olive oil and balsamic vinegar...hmmmm
5. what famous person, dead or alive, would you want to have lunch with?
Right now, it would be my new friend Jasmine. But I get to have my first coffee with her tomorrow night and NOT stand her up :P
6. what was the last book you read?
Actually completed? Not sure. Lately, I've had the tendency to read till it hurts, or hits a nerve, than put down the book for a breather, or maybe you might call it running away.
7. what was the last movie you watched?
Daybreakers. which is weird that I'm watching movies about vampires....i actually liked it.
8. what was the last song you heard?
haha....my neighbour across the street has been blaring "Airplanes" by B.O.B. over and over and over. So i think that was the last song i heard. Other than that, it's most likely an eminem song.
9. what is your dream vacation?
Somewhere on a beach, in a teenie bikini soaking up rays with my hubby :D
10. what is the next trip you will take?
We're going to the Waldherr family reunion in August. So look out Yorkton, here we come!!! :P
11. did you ever go to camp?
I had to laugh at my sister's memories of camp. I forgot that Lance made you drink your gravol! hahaha! My memories of camp were sneaking out of the cabin late at night, drinking whiskey that my boyfriend brought, getting kicked out of camp for breaking all the rules, getting caught in the boys cabins, carving my friends name into my arm with a safety pin to become blood friends (:-O) and I think there was some singing around a camp fire in there too.
12. have you ever been in love?
I keep thinking that I am in love, then I fall deeper and deeper.....love just keeps going.....:D Just when you think you know what love is, you go and realize it's just so much more than you think!
13. what do you want to know about the future?
that's all in the past.
You mean the future.
Whatever! It demonstrates precisely how time travel can be mis-used, and why the time machine must be destroyed, after we straighten all of this out.
14. where is your best friend?
Currently, my best friend is at work, providing wonderfully for his family. another best friend is proabably in her backyard having a smoke smacking all the mosquitos, yet another is somewheres in willowgrove hopefully enjoying her very active, very super cute little boy....
15. how is your best friend?
I think they are all well
16. who is the biggest gossiper you know?
i have to go with nin on this one, probably her. :P
17. what does your last text message say?
Text message? call me old, but I don't even have a cell phone
18. what are 3 things you've always wanted to do, that you still plan to accomplish?
Run a marathon, finish this house!!!!! and to heal....fully and completely....
19. what is one thing you learned from your parents?
That yard work is overrated and a waste of time and if you don't do it, someone else will. that it's better to be real than a liar. that to stay young, all you have to do is occasionally scare people, play jokes on them, even if you're the only one laughing (like putting cheese slices in shoes) and that blood is thicker than anything else.
20. what is one thing you hope to teach to your own children?
for sure just to be honest. with honesty, you can get through anything. and of course to know that they are loved no matter what they've done.
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