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Okay, since I've procrastinated on blogging for so long....I have to somehow share what's up without writing a book....

The post that I wrote on forgiveness is continuing to bear fruit. It is a daily choice, but since I made the step of obeDIEnce, God's has taken the burden and made it light on me.

Moving forward......moving into dreams.....moving past the fears.....moving into His destiny for us. These are the themes of our home.
Joe is increasingly taking more and more as leader in our family. I sit back in awe and in shock at times at how he's taking the reigns and saying, "okay family.....LET"S GO! Follow me...."

Our God is pretty smart at growing His kids. One way He trains us is NOT GIVING OR SHOWING US THE WHOLE PICTURE. He does that on purpose. If we knew all the answers, all the why's and howcome's.....we would never need faith. Trusting Him that His plans our for good gets easier and easier. The more and more our eyes see His unfailing faithfulness, and the more we choose to walk in that.....the more we bear fruit.
God keeps us on our toes with new training ground tests. In our home, marriage and in the safety of our church family. When we are earnestly seeking him, there's never a dull moment. Survival mode is NOT AN OPTION people!
Yesterday, I was spending time with God and I was remembering the "pretty white dress" song and dance. The song is based from Romans 8:1 "there is now no condemnation for those in Christ" (For those of you who don't know, "pretty white dress" is a song that livin forgiven, my sister wrote when she was first saved. During a concert of the heart at our church, I danced out the song in a white dress.)
When we did that song 4 years ago, it was a real eye opener to have that freedom that we don't have to feel like we are stained all the time, that Jesus really paid the debt and we really are free. But I'm realizing more and in more depth that the freedom he gave us was so that we could be empowered, confident and bold to go and make disciples!!! Not just so that we would feel good. Walking in purpose.....

My journey with food continues. I have lost a total of 37 pounds and have about 13 left to go. This journey never ceases to amaze me how many paralell's there are in our walk with God. The more I walk down this road, the more He shows me that it really has nothing to do with weight and body image at all. It's all in my obeDIEnce to him. it's all in showing him that I TRUST Him. it's all in staying commited. His word says that He will carry on the work to COMPLETION. The enemy has trying to tell me that it's good enough. You've gone far enough now. You're only 13 pounds overweight...no big deal. At least you're not of breath all the time...at least you're a size 12 and you were a 18....on and on it goes.
I'm not going down to my goal weight for my benifit, for me (even tho, all the fruit that comes from it is sure a blessing!)....I'm going all the way because God wants to show somehting here. He wants to be glorified, He wants people to see all he can do with a willing and obedient heart. He wants to fufill His promises through us! And Him doing things to the very end is His business.
I haven't at all done this perfectly. We will never do the walk perfectly. He knows that! There's a difference between rebellion and humility. I NEED Jesus every moment. And the second I think I can do it without him, I fall flat. We decieve ourselves sooooo sooo easily. The word says that He turns all things to good to those who love Him. I am starting to learn that it's not about the sin, it's about the needing Him. It's not about perfection, it's about direction. It's not about our power, but about His power through us. It's not about being strong, but weak.....

I NEED HIM and the closer I get to him, THE MORE I REALIZE I NEED HIM!

Well, that's it for now.
blessings!