My night last night!!!

Last night, I'm feeding my baby.
Faith is in my bed and the other two are playing quietly in Noah's room.
All is well
I'm enjoying some quiet time for myself, soaking in my lovely new basement atmosphere.
I get to watch Dr. Phil that I've recorded earlier in the day
My 15$ on sale fountain is trickling in the background
My mood lights are turned down to just the right mood..........


All of a sudden, this shiny figure that resembles my 2 year old daughter comes out into the living room.
She stands there quietly, waiting for a verdict.....

In shock....I stand to my feet put my hands over my mouth and stare and what lies infront of me...

My 2 year old, COVERED in what looks like to be at least a half a cup of vaseline!!!!!!
Her hair is standing in a mohawk. Her eye lashes are gooped with beads of it.
Her hands and arms are covered
her face is shining like the sun.

I start to laugh

Then cry.....
and laugh....
faith had no idea what mom was going to do.....

I pray for strength, breathe in nice deep breaths, and gently lift her and put her in to my tub, so I can investigate the rest of this crime scene.

In my room, my pillow, my bed, my bed skirt, my comforter, my quilt....are all COVERED in grease!
My books on my bedside, my dresser, and some of the wall.........

This is when I loose it
Call joe at work, tell him it's an emergency....COME HOME NOW!!! Baby is crying, faith is still waiting in the tub.
call my sis...no answer
my mom....no answer.....

AGHHHHHH

half an hour later, Joe is home, Faith is bathed (3 washes with dish soap and she's still greasy)
And baby is happy.

Final verdict

One bedset in the garbage
One mom who will never EVER leave vaseline (or maybe ever even buy it!) out again!!
One greasy kid
A half hour of work time that Joe needs to make up
A lot of prayers gone up to our Father for help and grace
An answered prayer,
us all coming out alive and a promise that His mercies are new every morning!

Super funny!! Go to my hubby's blog, I was just there, we typed the same thing without realizing it!
only my story was told better...wouldn't you think????

believe

Acts 20:29

The work of God is this: To BELIEVE in the One He sent

Believe....what is the meaning? How does this apply? How do we walk out a life of faith and believing in the One He has sent?

Our pastor spoke on this on sunday, which has echoed what God and I have been working through...
I looked up the word believe in the dictionary and it says this:
-to have confidence in the truth, the existence, or the reliability of something, although without absolute proof that one is right in doing so:

-Only if one believes in something can one act purposefully.

I SO BADLY want to walk this, model this!! I desire for my Father to see I believe Him, believe IN Him....but sadly, my actions continue to model otherwise.
It seems this root is deep and very hard to uproot. My doubt...

again.....I have to BELIEVE that He will complete the work He started
I have to BELIEVE that He is doing a new thing, springing life up from the desert
I have to BELIEVE that He that is in me is greater than he that is in the world
BELIEVE that I will do even greater things than Jesus!
That I have the way, the truth and the life......IN ME!!!

I need to BELIEVE that if I persevere, I will bear fruit.
We sang a song on Sunday, "For the work that God is doing within me, that I cannot see.....AMEN"

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we cannot see.

Joe and I talked a bit today about how I'm doing,
I have 4 kids, and I continue to struggle with feeling inadequate, like I can't keep my head above water, like I'm failing. I run to him, I am calling to Him and I know he's there. I couldn't imagine going through this feeling disconnected from Him. I know and BELIEVE that He is there for me, no matter where I'm at, or how bad I'm doing. I cry out for His grace, His power....I don't know how many times I've said, "I can't do this, you need to help me!! God I know you can help me, give me your heart, your patience, wisdom, grace to get through this" It just seems like I'm going from moment to moment crying all the time!!! Does this get any easier? Is my faith and belief actually growing? Am I really getting stronger???
I would have to say, that I don't feel like I am.
I feel like I'm spinning my wheels.
Is there something I am missing?
Being a stay at home homeschooling mom is so hard right now.
Faith whines alot these days
baby wants to eat
isaiah's papers and markers and scissors all over and Noah being Noah!!

At the kid's piano recital last night, Noah was bouncing off the walls (of course the large strawberry milkshake that my mom bought him last night didn't help!)
and he got an envelope of money as a reward for practicing (which wasn't much) and he complained about it. so out of overwhelmingness, and frustration, I took his quarter away.
my sis laughed at me, rightfully so. It wasn't helping the situation. I just get so drained.


Any wisdom? encouragement? Prayers?

ok, so real quick....

while i have 2 minutes....well i don't really have 2 minutes, but I'm just gonna post those pics really quick....
I wanted to follow up on the last post how child #1, 3 and 5 are alike and how child #2 and 4 are alike....
you saw the striking similarities in the 1,3 and 5
here is noah and faith....maybe #6 will look like them too!!!......................HAHA not in your life!!

Noah was also born in the age of those camera's that have film....Joe still hasn't scanned his baby baby pics which would be better, but these are all i have....for now.


noah in his favorite blue's clue's pj's
This is faith about a year ago....I have one of Noah in this same chair and you can't tell them apart!...but it's the "old school" pic that's not on the computer yet....
Faith and Isaiah...
You can tell who is who...
Faith at 5 months. A little noah
my noah.....eating celery and raisins
Noah.....a little faith
faith....a little noah
Noah greeting caleb after school.....still missing him. feels empty today without him.....
my mr.caleb man.