my niece

This morning I had the priveldge of taking my niece out for breakfast. Just her and I. I gave her the option of anywhere in the city to go for breakfast. She listed off a few of her favorites, "well, we could go to denny's where my mommy alicia worked, or the red rock...(the red rock is this dumpy old place on 22nd st.) I'm glad she picked denny's!

Her pancakes came with cherries and whipped cream and of course, I let her get a chocolate milk! I can't believe that I've waited this long to spend one on one time with her. I'm trying not to beat myself up about the past, but I'm glad that it's something I can start now. I guess for me and my sister, I've always had all the kids and she always had just one. But I'm very excited to start building a real close relationship with her...just one on one. I know that she knows I love her, and she sees me like everyday, but I want to be able to talk to her when she's going through preteen and teen stuff. I want her to feel like she can call me and say, "hey auntie, I really need to talk to you about something, can we go for coffee?" I desire to have all the doors open to speak into her life, and that only comes with many strings tied. I thank God that he can do anything with a willing heart to give and serve, and my niece is well worth the investments!
We talked about her 2 new sblings coming to the world in a month. We talked about her becoming my neighbour in a few weeks, about Caleb not being able to talk or walk, about my new baby and where it's going to sleep, and she learned how to play hang man at the restaurant...but she calls it "hang girl" LOL

May God bless our relationship and thank you for giving me such a wonderful niece, she really is a treat if you really get to know her!!!

my theme song for the next season of my life

Casting crowns/ Voice of truth


Oh What I Would Do To Have
The Kind Of Faith It Takes
To CLimb Out Of This Boat
And Then
On To The Crashing Wave
To Step Out Of My Comfort Zone
Into The Rhelms Of The Unknown
Where Jesus Is
And He's holding out his hand

But The Waves Are Calling Out My Name
And They Laugh At Me
Reminding Me Of All The Times
Ive Tried Before and Failed
The Waves They keep On Telling me
Time and Time Again
Boy You'll Never
No You'll Never Win

Oh What I Would Do To Have
The Kind Of Strength It Takes To Stand Before
A Giant
With Just A Sling And A Stone
Surrounded By The Sound
Of A Thousand Warriors
Shaking In Their Armor
Wishing They Had Had The Strength To Stand
But The Giant's Calling out My Name
And He Laughs At Me
Reminding Me Of All the Times
I've tried Before and Failed
The Giant Keeps on Telling Me

But The Voice Of Truth
Tells Me A Different Story
The Voice Of Truth
Says Do Not Be Afraid
And The Voice of Truth
Says This Is For My Glory
Out Of All The Voices Calling out To Me
I will Choose To Listen and Believe
The Voice Of Truth

chore update

It's always nice to stroke things off your list


organize kids books by subject (this was done once already, but has to be re done cause they're all messy again)
organize noah's toys (this was also done, but got messy)
organize Isaiah's toys (ditto)
De clutter toys (give away half of them!!)
Go through all the kids clothes ( did the girls' clothes last night the boys tonight)
make a pile for baby
make a give away pile
Plan Noah's school year
Plan Isaiah's school year
Organize school books
Organize hall closet (all the puzzle pieces from about 20 puzzles are all in the same box!!!AAAHHH)
Organize baby stuff
Renovate our basement (put 2 rooms and a bathroom downstairs)
Paint

I was so very encouraged by all the comments...thank you thank you thank you.
All of you spoke truth that I needed to hear. I really appreciate you all and the wisdom from those that have gone before was great.

Well, it is one task at a time, going on the right source of strentgh and the rest is up to God.

As a side note....we are hoping to buy this house....and yesterday, the hot water tank busted! And our landlord agreed to have it replaced and to upgrade the chimney!!! So when and if we buy the house, our hotwater tank will be brand new, new chimney, and our furnace was replaced 2 years ago. What a blessing.
God is so good, what can I say.

The nesting stage starts already

I remeber being pregnant with Faith and the whole time, I was getting my home ready for a new human. I nested so bad that the home was MORE than ready by the time I was about 6 or 7 months pregnant. Which looking back, was a very good thing since you're so big and tired at the end to do anything anyway.
There's always something that comes over me when I'm pregnant that pushes me to new heights of character. I don't take being a parent lightly. I know that God will hold me accountable for the way I'm raising His kids that he's given me to care for. I struggle with doubting myself alot. When I should be trusting the God in me to do His work by His grace. Having 5 kids will be no lazy picnic. It will be a huslting, bustling busy tizzy whirl of go go go. Being that I am lazy by nature scares me. My friend told me to look at how far I've come, but I feel like it's doesn't really matter how far I've come when I have so far to go....
I guess if you've been to my house at all, you'll probably never see me sit down, which I hope people understand that sometimes I just can't.

So now I've made up my list for next baby:

organize kids books by subject (this was done once already, but has to be re done cause they're all messy again)
organize noah's toys (this was also done, but got messy)
organize Isaiah's toys (ditto)
De clutter toys (give away half of them!!)
Go through all the kids clothes ( did the girls' clothes tonight)
make a pile for baby
make a give away pile
Plan Noah's school year
Plan Isaiah's school year
Organize school books
Organize hall closet (all the puzzle pieces from about 20 puzzles are all in the same box!!!AAAHHH)
Organize baby stuff
Renovate our basement (put 2 rooms and a bathroom downstairs)
Paint

Needless to say, I'm a little overwhelmed. I need to cling to him more desperately than I am. I believe, i know, I believe that His grace is sufficent. But like my sister said, "there's a difference between knowing the path, and walking the path"

Please pray for me and us if God puts us on your heart. Being that this is #5, there has also been different responses to our pregnancy. When we told some of our family, there was just silence and then someone changed the subject. Also, a very close family member said when we told him, "i don't know whether to congradulate you or feel sorry for you..." My neighbour said that she thought of a name for this next one, "hope.....hope there's no more"

Thank you for your support here in blogger ville. I know I shouldn't let others opinions get to me. I really pray that I can be set free from that. The fear of God should come beofre the fear of man....

Blessings and thanks for walking with me and staying in touch.

Baby #5

So if most of you didn't figure it our by my baby counter, I am pregnant again! Baby # 5 on the way....I still can't believe it, but yet I am so sincerely grateful that God has chosen me to have many children! The thought that our family was destined to be a larger one gives me joy and hope.

I rememebr getting pregnant with faith (my 4th) I was so scared. We named her faith because that exactly what she meant to us. We needed much faith of the unseen to have her....and God have truly come through in EVERY way! We have MORE than enough of what we need to raise these kids. The word says that grace will abound to you for you to EVERYTHING he has called you to do.

I will keep you undated. I get my second ultra sound on thursday to find out the exact due date. I also have the best Doctor in the world! For the last 4 babies, I have been seeing a FAR too busy obstetrician who doesn't really see me as a person, but maybe a pay cheque....I switched back to my family Doctor (the one that has been seeing me since i've been 4 years old, is delivering my sister's baby, delivered Jonah (her first born) knows my mom well and my family)
Well, I'm signing off for now. hopefully will have more to type later....it seems i never have time to do some really good blogs lately, so this will have to do.....sorry....

you'll never guess who lost their wallet.....again...

ME! again....blush....I haven't seen it in about 3 or 4 days now. Usually i just trust that it's going to turn up and it always has up to this point. Well, it hasn't, and i thought i'd ask for some prayer. I really need to find it....since I NEED my health card these days!
anywho. we are leaving for winnipeg in a couple of days. caleb will be staying at Parkridge and anyone is free to go give him a visit if they have time. He gets dropped off tomorrow and stays till the 20TH!
to lazy to type more, tired, hot and a little sick.....
so signing off for a while!
blessings.