My battle cry

super fun people!!!! super fun....

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
an hour ago....
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I actually do!
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
cajun chicken breast
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
many
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I would.....I love to laugh, yes I love to play, that's me with toopy and benoo
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
yeah (hang head) My mom used to talk sarcasticly with us as kids and I hate it when I do it to my kids "I'm not a horse!" (mom voice)
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
who would honestly care if I still had my tonsils? so i'm not going to tell you!
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
I thought I would say yes, but I think it's a sing of aging....I think not.....sigh
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
cinnamon toast crunch, fruit loops, and shreddies
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
I do! I have brand new REAL "running shoes" now. I want to take good care of them!
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
today, I don't feel strong. But the voice of truth tells me I am....
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
hmmmm, the winner out of 20 different flavors would be......pecan blizzard!!!
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
The way they hold themselves. If they are confident or shy, or trying to get attention.
15. RED OR PINK?
I am a pink girl
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
my forgetfulness...I let people down too often because I forget
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Caleb
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU?
It's fun and I wouldn't mind reading what others would fill in.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Jeans and socks
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
a yummy delicious juicy fuji apple and sipping on water with a hint of real lime juice
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Noah in the back ground asking me repeatidly to use the computer to play battle for middle earth.....
22. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
ALL OF THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
First and foremost, when Elishah's toes get all sweaty from being in her sleeper!!
My new coconut shampoo, breast milk and coffee in the morning
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Lloanne, we prayed together. I LOVE praying on the phone
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
I STOLE it from a stupid daikini while he was taking a pee pee!! (Willow quote)
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
So you think you can dance, america's got talent and america's funniest home videos...are those sports?
27. HAIR COLOR?
Other than me going bald from having a baby, It's just boring dirty blonde...nin, if you want to dye my hair sometime, let's do it!
28. EYE COLOR?
gray, green blue.....somewhere in there
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Someday I am going to try contacts to change my eye color
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
It keeps changing!! What am I suppose to do??? (labyrinth quote)
but seriously, It does keep changing. I really am enjoying this new way of eating and really have been not craving as much junk....which is super awesome! I really feel like the food addiction is slowly over many years being healed!
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
happy happy joy joy joy (ren and stimpy quote)
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
parts of emperor's new grove....BOOM BABY!
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black....but who cares?
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
i love how we have both then we appreciate each one all the more! I try not to wish it was the opposite season when we're in it and just enjoy the heat/cold.
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs for sure, I'm sure Joe would prefer me to like kisses more
36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Oh, my gosh, I never use to like sweets, but now it's a pecan cluster blizzard which I'm definitly having on my free day!!!!!!(large!) haven't I already mentioned this blizzard once ?? Obsess much!! (Ace ventura quote)
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Hopefully many will do this it's pretty fun!
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
People who are poopers
39. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING NOW?
Body for life, intercessory prayer, the book of 1st kings and no greater joy volume 3
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
don't have a mouse pad
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT?
america's funniest home videos and laughed my butt off watching people wipe out on water skis!
42. FAVORITE SOUND?
my MP3 payer blaring in my ears while I run, worship music, and listening to my baby girl swallow breast milk
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
neither....pink floyd all the way!!
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
prince george BC for a tae kwon do tournament which I won gold for both sparring and patterns!
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
is juggling 4 kids and a hubby a special talent?
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Winnipeg!

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paralized

facing the once a year homeschool giant...

Every year at this time, I am usually paralyzed. Looking and thinking of all that needs to get done, all that I need to prepare....one more day goes by...another....another week goes by and the dead line approaches.

I keep thinking that, once my house is all clean and all the kids are in bed, I will crack open the 2 new curiculums that I've bought for this year and go over them with candles and relaxing music in the background....HAHAHAHA .... yeah like that'll ever happen!

My sister Nin, has helped me through the day, phoning every hour and getting the progress reports. Cheering me on. Hopefully she doesn't read this blog and see that I'm on the computer, blogging!! LOL SHHHHH.....don't say anything!

So I've got to gather the laundry, tidy: Isaiah's room, Elishah's room, our room and downstairs. Then I have to vacuum. Then I'm pretty much done. I hope to really make a big dent into my school books tonight.

Thought of the day

On Dr. Phil, there was a couple in serious need of help in their marriage. She was bawling her eyes out saying, "I'd do anything! I'd do anything for him! Help us!"

Dr. Phil hit the nail on the head with his reply......"You won't shut up.....you say you'd do anything for him, but you won't let things go....you won't shut up...."

He was right. We convince ourselves that we are walking a path righteously by lying to ourselves with phrases like this woman did. When really, we are doing the very opposite of what we are setting out to do.

Constantly dripping water on a rainy day is like a quarreling woman (proverbs 27:15)

It was eye opening. Sometimes in my marriage, I think I'm doing the right thing by bringing things up, but maybe it's not even something to battle over and maybe my mouth needs to just stay shut. Not to "settle" not to "compromise our marriage" But to honor and respect my husband. This is honoring to God. Pray for him instead. Love him, show him that you trust him, believe in him....like you did when you were dating.

In our Love and Respect class, something popped out super far for me this time. He said, "He will never be the man you want him to be" That hit me like a sharp knife because it pointed the finger right at me. KEEP YOUR HUSBAND UNDER GOD'S PLANS, NOT YOUR PLANS. It was very humbling.

Someday, we will function gloriously together, showing the world the beauty and mystery of how God gave His only son for the world. Joe would die for me and I follow him wherever he leads....

Prayer

Our church has a program this summer called kids summer church. We were asked as a body participate in a choice of many areas. You could serve in the snack department or help be a puppeteer or join a prayer team. I asked God which one He would have me join. I was led to the prayer team. It seemed like a great idea! I'm going to join the prayer team and surround myself with wise, old, prayer warriors and learn from them!! I know that I need to grow in my prayer life, what better way than to sit beside those that have been doing it for years and years!

Haha...the joke's on me....

I approached the leader of kids church and told her I was interested in the prayer team. She said, "Since no one else has come forward, would you be interested in leading the prayer team?"

...Not what I had in mind....

But 4 weeks into our little group, my world is being turned upside down... Prayer....
You need to be courageous person to pray

I feel wounded from battle. Having a severely disabled son for nearly 10 years has taken it's toll on my prayer life, my faith and my endurance.
It's ironic, that God has led me down this path of running. He is showing me alot about perseverance and running the race. Now he has asked me to open my heart to Him once again in prayer.

I pray....I pray about myself, about how I can change...It's easy to pray about yourself, but to pray to move mountains in other's lives is something else. To pray to see a nation born again and revived for God's glory is way out of my ball park! I prayed for Caleb's healing for 10 years. I prayed with faith, I prayed without faith. I tried the "pray everyday like the old widow beggar" I tried fasting (although could never do it) Caleb was never healed. If God is going to do what he's going to do anyway....why pray????? If He is all soveriegn, all powerful and all knowing, why pray? What would our prayers do to change anything???? How could someone as small as me make a difference? And here's another big question.....Aren't we supposed to pray HIS WILL???What if we don't know His will???? To pray for healing for someone...what if they aren't supposed to live?????

Only in chapter 4 of "Intercessory Prayer" God is unravelling lies rooted deep in my mind about prayer. He is jackhammering a poor foundation of mistrust, lack faith and courage. It's been painful, yet exciting. Extremely challenging, and scary....

I came to the conclusion that God didn't need us. This phrase can be a play on words. Many people could debate this sentence forever. What I think I'm learning is that God WANTS US. He set it up so that we could be friends, partners, so that He would flow through this earth through our prayers. We were not designed for production, but distrubution. He delights in moving through us. He does NOT want to move APART from us. He wants to be co laborers with us.

This is mind warping! The God of the universe, that is holy and self sustaining.....WANTS US SO BAD that He SET IT UP so that He would not work, move or love apart from us!!

I've realized that the pink paragraph above was a comfortable place. There's no responsibility, no mission, no real purpose. But that isn't God's plan. We DO have a responsibility, a mission and purpose....TO PRAY.

I can quote many scriptures on prayer in the word. I've known in my head what the word says on prayer. that as believers, we do need to pray. The word is very clear that prayer is extremely important. But head knowledge and heart knowledge is a huge bridge that needs to come together! My circumstance in life wounded me. Experience showed me something else.
But the word of God is superior to all things!! EVEN MY EXPERIENCE! it is perfect and flawless (psalms) So that means that I did not walk according to His word. That means that the conclusions I made through my experience were wrong because they did not line up with God's word. His word is final. We need to walk out His words THROUGH FAITH, AND NOT BY SIGHT> In Caleb's case, I focused on what was seen, and that is not the definition of faith. Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we cannot see. What life "showed" me was not accurate!!


THere's much much more in my heart. I'm trying to summarize this without typing a book. But this is the journey i'm on. God is faithful. I know He is near. I am thankful for His peace and promise that He will never leave me alone.

I'm quitting weight watchers!

Time to start planning my next school year. I always start out quite intimidated, but yet, I have an element of excitement. I'm excited about new growth in myself to take it to new heights, excited to spend good quality (and quantity) time with my kids, teaching, discipling and having fun. Not like we aren't doing that now, but in a routine schedule, it runs smoother and more efficient.

I am going to go to one last meeting of weight watchers and then I just can't justify anymore to go step on their scale for 15 bucks a week. I don't even have the option of staying for the meetings anyway, and I have a scale at home. To be honest, I'm tired of counting points. And I've always said to myself that I didn't want to spend the rest of my life counting.

I have found "body for life" through witnessing someone close to me work very hard and achieving some amazing results, I have decided to embark on a new, yet same road.

Body for life focuses on getting rid of the fat content, while replacing it with fit, fat burning muscle. To make for a healthier, fit and toned body. Instead of counting everything, it's simple....a carb...a protein....each the size of your fist and any veggies you like. Eat many times a day (up to 6 depending on how much you are working out) I am only eating 3 basic meals and 1 to 2 small snacks, because I don't have the weights to do the weight portion of the program yet.
It's so simple for me (and for anyone)
6 days on...one day off. I have appreciated the information about eating more often. It has curbed cravings and leveled the high and low spikes of my blood sugar levels. I am looking forward to a bigmac, icecream and a twix bar on my free day!!! with no guilt...

This is my new thing....but yet, something I've been kinda doing already.....
yet, it's not a new thing to come and go. But am really enjoying the fruit of a healthy LIFESTYLE. not a diet, but a way of life.