My God

What do I say....

I think to when God met me.
In my little room in drug rehab.
Sitting on my bed crying. nowhere to turn.
He met me through a small bible in Psalm 121. His love FLOODED into my soul. It opened up a whole new world I never knew. A world of hope, peace, forgiveness and joy.



What if I were deaf and blind, what if I were mute
what if I could play the music, couldn't sing the tune
I guess I'd sit beside the palace gates
Hear the rumble of the church brigade
and have only my love to offer You.....

These lyrics go through my head all day for many days now....

God's uncondtional love is unmeasureable.
It's invaluable
It's unfathomable
It's overwhelming
It's my source of life

To live a life of worship is my only response to all that He is

Those are my thoughts today!!

I have to try this!

Okay janelle had this post where she just wrote all the interesting things about herself. and it looked like alot of fun and it was totally fun reading it!

Okay where do I start....

I told my sister to rollerskate down the basement stairs. We had a macaroni fight while our parents were at work when we were little. I love giving birth. The last baby, I even asked for a mirrior to see faith come out! My kids are supposed to be doing their "chore packs" right now. I am really good at drawing cartoons. I used to throw up before parties when I was a teen because I was so excited. I ran away when I was 12. I gave my mom a ton of gray hair, I made my dad loose his hair. My sister made the rest of mom's hair gray and the last strands of hair on my dad fall out.

I love dancing hip hop. I dance in front of my kids all the time. I used a pretend microphone as a kid. I bite my nails and the skin around it. when I paint my nails, I bite the polish off and spit it out. I am studying about laziness and being a Godly wife right now. My favorite movies are Labrinth, Italian job, Uncle Buck, signs and many more. I used to fold all underwear until the 3rd child. I usually can't eat anything unless it has a spicy kick to it. I absolutly love doing pilates! I can't stand changing other people's kids diapers, but my own can be as stinky as can be and I'm cool with that. My worst favorite chore is cleaning the bathroom. I LOVE rainbows! I will stay up at any hour to see a storm blow in, even if that means standing out in the hail and wind.

I was super good at Tae kwon do. I won the national championships in my belt level. I was a speed swimmer with the lasers. The best thing to do in the summer is get to some water, swim and watch your skin turn color. I slept in my closet when I was 13 for a whole month. I pierced my nose with my mom when I was 15. I pierced my belly button twice with a safety pin. I hated school. Homeschooling is my passion. I married my highschool sweetheart. I was the only married student in my highschool. I was in drug rehab twice. I absoulty love the movie "prince of egypt". I can't stand Teletubbies. I LOVE my church family.

My dad tried to spank me when I was 16! My mom stood on a chair while we flapped all around yelling at us to stop. LOL My mom broke her pinky finger on my head. I have the bestest parents ever!! They taught me how to have fun, to laugh and stay close! We always laugh about all we did. I love the book "every women's battle" I am careful to keep good boundries around our marriage to keep it safe. I twisted my knee off one time while I was doing the "carlton dance" and I hobbled to the doctors hanging off my sisters shoulder! She laughed uncontrolably at my pain. She also laughed her face off when I slammed my toe in the door(to which I still have no feeling in since December!) I left my 2 year old in minus forty weather one block away from Idlyld all alone and I drove away!

I love gardening! Still learning! I don't know if I want more kids. Some days I do, some days I DO NOT! I used to wear hippie dresses with combat boots. My parents had to hide those boots in the oven to keep me from running away. I have learned alot from the 12 step program. I love cooking. One time I cooked a whole turkey with an SOS pad at the bottom of the roaster. I secretly phoned the poison control center before feeding the turkey to my guests. After dinner I told them that the turkey was cooked with an SOS pad! I left a pan of brownies in the oven for 3 and half hours on christmas eve. when we got home from the candle light service, it was a big black brick!

I would always burn my head with my curling iron as a teen. I would wear my dad's clothes and shoes to school. I am a die hard Super Nintendo fan (the old kind) Mc kids, Super mario kart, mortal combat are my fav games. My mom used to sew our sheets to the matress every week! I used to have pet grasshoppers as a kid and take care of them. One time, I lost one and my whole family went out to look for "hoppy" for an hour! I had one job my whole life and got fired for stealing. My hubby got hired on at Sasktel!

I love/don't love how God doesn't tell us what's next! The word of God is the manual and source of life for all things!!!! Get to know Jesus, Life won't be so lonely and hopeless!! Without my fellow travellers in this journey with God, I would be lost!!!! I love how God designed us to sharpen eachother! I love/ don't love correction. I always thank God after being disciplined. I grieve for hurting marriages. I have a heart for those in bondage to overeating and eating disorders. I have a passionate hate towards sexual immorality. not for the person, but the sin.

I love blogging, sledding, swimming, exersicing, movies, eating out, hanging out with the best of friends, talking about the important things in life, and all of YOU!

How's that for useless information!!!

Well, that's it for now.

Guess who came over today?

So, I did get a chance to go to Superstore today and went through Crystal's lane!
So as I'm going through her lane, she says to me, "hey , I'm off in 15 minutes, wanna hang out??" So she got to come over to my house and meet all my family and I was so priveldged to meet her. She is soooo beautiful! Oh my goodness! We are going to get together again soon. Isn't that the coolest how God puts us together!?
Tanya phoned me too the other day and blessed my socks off! All the way from BC and she called me! I really wonder what God has up his sleeve for all these divine appointments~

Can't wait to meet the rest of you. We've all been connected for a reason and maybe the reason will unfold sooner than we think!
STay in touch yall!
Love you lots,
Sarah

a word of caution

I really feel led to just share what God's been teaching me.

God has torn the curtain in 2! HALLELUIA! He has chosen to live right inside of us. We have now become His temple. Our heart soul and body is His home. More and more God opens my eyes to show me the significance of taking care of HIS temple. Of being a good steward of what He has given me. All these years, I had it all wrong!!
I had it ALL BACKWARDS!
In our society, Satan has brainwashed us to a dangerous spot! Teens are getting sick and even dying from eating disorders! Wives have extremely low self esteem and depressed beacuse they are not air brushed by a computer. Everywhere we turn there is pressure to look like models, have wash board abs and not a single wrinkle, spot or stretch mark! (well, since most of us chose to have kids.....there's no hope for us ever having a normal stomach again!!!)

Who are we???????...................
Yes, yes, I know, we are children of God.....we are co heirs with Christ, we are the light of the world, we are being renewed day by day......yeah yeah yeah.....I know all that.........

No, but seriously......
Satan and OUR OWN EVIL DESIRES, are totally side tracking us. We are losing our focus. I see many many sisters around me jumping on the wagon to lose weight! AND THAT'S GREAT!
But I need to ask WHY?
To take care of your temple, or to boost our self image?
To honor God in obedience, or to look like the cover of a magazine?
To have no other gods before Him, or to feel like your "worth something" ?
Believe me people, I have to ask myself these questions everyday. I still have episodes of binging and purging. (they are becoming very few and farther between) but I just want you to know, I'm not perfect in this. I just want all us girls to stop and think for a second WHERE IS OUR HEARTS? WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVES?
I believe that when James said, "you don't get what you want because you will spend what you get on your OWN PLEASURES" It totally relates to us all going after weight loss.
Taking care of our temples is extremely spiritual! The more I get in shape, the more I under stand how I am a vessel. How I need strength and endurance for the work He has prepared IN ADVANCE for me to do. It was alot harder for me to serve God when I was out of breath and tired all the time. When I was always thinking of the next meal and not on God's work.

If you are on a journey to lose weight....please, I encourage you to go after God and change your heart. I know that if I don't fix my insides, my outsides will go right back to where I came from. I posted some pics in my last post to show you a PIECE of fruit. Not THE fruit.
I am of course telling all this to myself again......
I need to keep my eyes fixed on the author and perfector of my faith.
Otherwise, I'm toast.
God is moving. I see a call to greater strength and endurance. A call to purity of heart where God is all we need. Let's embrace it together and not let the enemy use our own weaknesses against us.

I love all of you! Tanya, crystal, jannelle, kim, tina, jenny..... and all my hopers! I love having you all in my life! Your encouragement means so much to me.!!!

He is able to do more than we could ever think or imagine!

God is so cool becuase He always has greater plans than our own little minds could ever think of.

His plans go way beyond our faith, go way beyond our imaginations! Whenever He does something, I am in shock, in awe, and can't help but to worship Him more! There are tons of things around me that I could share as an example, but I will share this one today.

When I started my weight loss journey, first of all, I never dreamed that I would get to where He's brought me! I honestly thought that I would of failed. That by now, I'd be back to where I was, even more over weight. I had many doubts. To jump off that cliff was defintily super hard. To trust that God had better plans for me, to trust that He would catch me, to trust that Through Him I can DO ALL THINGS>>>>>



I was looking in my head to loose about 20 pounds. I could live with that. I was going to settle. Along my weight loss journey, I've been tempted to just stop and be satisfied with where I was. But God goes all the way! Never stopping, never sleeping, until it's all done...TO COMPLETION!

42 pounds later, and I'm still called to go to the end. In order for me to be in a healthy range, I still have 8 more pounds to go. Form my perspective....I'M ONLY 8 POUNDS OVERWEIGHT!!!????? THAT'S NOTHING! I could surely live with that!!! But not God. He's into renovations. When He movers into a heart, He doesn't stop remoldeling until it's done!

The jewel in all of this is this: Last summer, I packed away my summer clothes. I was 6 weeks into my weightloss journey. I packed away pants and shorts that were way too small for me. I was filled with hope that when I go into the box next summer, that these things will fit! Well, 2 nights ago, I was looking for a pair of shorts to workout in, and had to go into this box of summer clothes to find a pair......
ALL THE PANTS, SHORTS AND TOPS ARE TOO BIG!!!! EVEN A PAIR THAT I'VE BEEN DYING TO GET IN FOR 6 YEARS!! I just kept thinking and praising God that He takes us all the way into the promised land. We have to remember that as humans we think that we could just settle on the horizon over looking the land flowing with milk and honey, but God has said THAT HE GAVE US THIS LAND TO POSSESS!! Let's go people, let not just over look to promised land with binoculars!! Let's not think that the grass is green enough on the out skirts! Let's go people..... it's been prepared for us in advance! Move our camp where it belongs!!!!

I'm just so excited of the truths of this example and many others that surround me. This has NOTHING to do with weight or me getting skinny. This is a heart transplant. without God I would be exactly where I was! Without the grace, without the power, without His love, Nothing is possible. I know full well, that it's only through Him that i've been able to get this far! I've been overweight it seems like my whole life. And not only that, but in bondage to bulemia since I was 12 years old!!!!! I've longed for this day....I've longed sooooo badly for the day that I could say that I've been set free. I would dream of the day that I could testify freedom and victory......

BUT I HAD TO SUBMIT FIRST. I HAD TO OBEY. I HAD TO BE VULNERABLE I HAD TO BE HUMBLE
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I HAVE TO STAY ALL THOSE THINGS TO KEEP GOING.
I need Jesus more today than I did yesterday!

But yes, I can say now with an amazing joy and thankfulness that I am free.....free for today......if i so choose!!!!
Tomorrow, I again will have to choose freedom.....
and the next day and the next......

and in 10 years from now, the bondage of gluttony and bulemia will be a distant memory!!!

THINK BIG BECAUSE GOD DOES!