Joe's Staff BBQ

So last night was Joe's big company BBQ. I had a picture in my mind of the forestry farm, you hold out your bun on a styrofoam plate and they plop your slab of meat on when it's done. I pictured balloons, kids and a few games......

Well, the BBQ was actually:
-At the bessborough
-It was catered
-They brought in a huge tent
-And a live band called (the Road Hammers)
-They served free drinks (I had a nice glass of wine with my meal)
-We ate prime rib, exotic veggies and cornbread



I had a lot of fun. I got to meet the guys that Joe works with and meet some of their wives. Joe's company is an amazing company to work for. At Christmas, they gave each of my 4 kids a 20$ gift! they took all the staff and their kids to the fun factory for lazer tag, gave them those tokens to use on the games (I never let my kids play) for free! there was a "Santa Clause" and a free supper!

I thank God for giving us so much. We are so blessed that Joe works for such a great company. I love my hubby, I just had so much fun with him, what a blessing to be married to your best friend!

My hubby is now famous

yo, whassup?
Kj-52 with Joe

Love

everyone's looking for love

what it means
how to get it
how to give it
what it looks like
what true love is
what real love is
where it comes from

Jesus has been whispering this to me for days "Love one another as I have loved you"

He loves so differently than I do. My love is so conditional, it's so surface..... God loves so deeply, so faithfully......without limits, without fear or hesitation.

If you can't recieve God's love that FREE, than you are only writing blank cheques with no money in your bank account.......the cheques will end up bouncing, coming back "Insufficent funds"

God's love OVERFLOWS, SPRINGS UP and comes from His storehouse. God, Open my heart, help me to risk, help me to be vulnerable, to trust, to let you in so I may OVERFLOW and stop writing bad cheques......

So you think you can dance dance dance dance....

Watched the LA auditions last night! I love this show! I'm totally betting that twitch will make the show this year. Also there was a blonde that was so versatile! I bet she'll make the show too. I can't remember her name, but Dominque was in the crowd and was gaga over her, it was cute.

Then there was that FREAKILY good popper that came to get his ticket to vegas and made Nigel dance! Very funny.

Who was your favorite dancer last year?

I thought Sabra was the best! I'm glad she won! I wish Hok and Ricky would have stayed in a bit longer.

I AM: Wife, mother of 5 and 4 at the same time, a child of God, the bride of Christ, a runner, a homeschooler.....


I THINK: about summer coming and that gets me super excited!

I KNOW: Lots of things in my head and not enough things in my heart


I WANT: to be satisfied completely and totally in my God.


I HAVE: A wicked sunburn right now that's heating up the room I'm in


I WISH: I could accept my body the way it is and not always wish to change something about it.


I HATE: divorce. I've realized lately......I guess that would be hating what God hates....It's so sad to watch and hear about.


I MISS: Just being.....not having to try so hard


I FEAR: sometimes that I will never be renewed. It's a lie I'm fighting these days. I want to be changed so bad that it's sabotaging!


I WONDER: What it will be like to see Caleb again. Will he run to me? Will he tell me all that he wanted to while he was here?


I FEEL: SO UP AND DOWN! the last 4 days, I'm up one minute and then down the next....I hate that


I HEAR: NOTHING! and it's WONDERFUL! joe took the 3 oldest kids to the circus and Elishah is sleeping


I SMELL: the dirt, and fertilizer on my hands from doing yard work

I REGRET: Not being a better mom to Caleb

I AM NOT: Going to give up, no matter what. I will keep running towards the goal


I DANCE: ALL the time. and if I'm not dancing, I am probably wishing that I could be!



I SING: to my God....and He loves it

I CRY: ...hummmm, all the time who would have guessed?

I DON'T ALWAYS: show how I'm REALLY doing....and I wish I could


I MAKE: disciples everyday in my kids


I LOSE: my keys, wallet, appointment cards, and my brain sometimes to


I NEVER: clean my bathroom! (well, i DO, but I HATE IT)


I ALWAYS: aren't we NEVER supposed to use the words NEVER and ALWAYS?


I NEED: The Lord, nuff said


I SHOULD: get off this computer and finish the backyard!

I START: and sometimes finish

I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: homeschooling my kids, with my hubby watching HIS show "myth busters" or my show "xweighted" running on the road, running on my parents treadmill, at the shaw center, with friends out for coffee, changing poopy bums, making meals, at my sister's, at my parents, at walmart, superstore, the dollar store, these days, in a garden center, on the phone, on the puter, doing stupid laundry......and very occasionally, cleaning a bathroom.

so much to do

Yard, fertilize grass
Garden, till, clean, empty compost, plant garden
4 loads of laundry to put away
a kitchen to clean
a whole house to vacuum
a van to clean out

Please God help me go through this day enJOYing every minute without getting stressed and overwhelmed.

New Kids are back!

I have to admit that I was a die hard NKOTB fan as a kid!
Had all their posters on my wall, you know, typical girl fan. After I went to their concert in grade 6, I screamed so long and so loud that I didn't have a voice for 3 days!!! Of course, when they went out of style, I still secretly liked them and would play my cassette tapes when no one was home!!! (BLUSH)

I know all their songs, all their dance moves, have all their albums....still on cassette.....

I would have to say that I'm kinda excited to hear they have reunited. Click here to go to their new website

And since I came out of the closet, who else is willing to face the truth that they ROCKED!
Who was your favorite new kid???? Jordan was my pick

back from my break

Joe went out of town for 5 days. It was a really good opportunity to recharge, rethink, recommit to everything. Before he left, we were so worn out by life. Now we both feel refreshed and ready to take on what God has for us. We had a beautiful weekend together as a family and feel that the Lord provided some new glue for us....

So, I am out in my yard today, Noah is doing is school work outside and I'm watering my grass, getting my garden ready for planting and enjoying my kids.

God I don't thank you enough for what you've given me. You have given me so much......forgiveness, salvation, victory, unconditional love and mercy, grace to sustain me, an awesome hubby, 5 beautiful children, a nice home, my health, wonderful extended family that knows you.....what more could I need?

Faith

scripture I'm meditating on right now, among others...

Faith is being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you can't see
Faith expresses itself through love
But by faith we eagerly await through the Spirit the righteousness for which we hope.
Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to his good purpose.
Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

I'm in a strange spot of surrender/war. Everything in me is being shaken at this time. I go from hope to despair. From light to dark. I know that only one thing is constant in all of this....God. He's amazing. He walks me through this without leaving me. If it's light or dark, His love still penetrates.

Questions never stop coming. It's a sweet place, yet it gets ugly too. Definietly in the fire. Last night I swore my skin melted right off. But I hear a voice that says, "that's only the surface, my child"

Joe is out of town for 4 days. The cry of my heart is for God to reach through the pride, the flesh, the fear, the masks and can bring revelation, change and radical faith.......

I will be taking a blogging break for this next week. Pray for my family if you feel led. I will miss y'all!