More blessings (81-100)

81. I am trusting God for my healing for my heartburn. I am trying to make the nesessary changes to my diet to help in the healing process. Right now, I am in the process of cutting out coffee completely!! Scary to me. You don't realize how much something is a god in your life until you try to take it away! I'm down to 1 cup (instead of 3) in the morning. I have also cut the grounds in half. Headaches are now a part of my life.

82. I am trusting God for my healing for my eating patterns. I know that I am changing slowly. I remember a dear friend said to me more than once that you can't really grow in the way you eat until you stop throwing up. She was right. I'm thankful that God is changing me into a "normal" eater....just like everyone else!!

83. I am trusting God for healing in my extended family. My parents are awesome! They taught me so many things that alot of other children never learn. We hung out last night and I was just rememebering all of my family's good traits. Honesty and openness. They have good hearts.

84. On lighter news, I am thankful that school is starting this Tuesday! Even tho the summer is over, I am excited to get back into routine and teach the kids fun stuff!

85. I am thankful that my mom is taking my babies this morning for me to lay out all my school books

86. My girls are worshipping and cleaning their room as I type.

87. We found "Ristar" on the internet and now I am able to pass on this awesome game to my son (It was originally from a Sega Genesis)

88. I am going to be harvesting my garden soon, with potatoes, tomatoes, dill, and carrots!

89. That Joe has lost 7 pounds. I am thankful that he has realized in the last couple of weeks the importance of strength and cardio and is doing well. He is happier and has more energy. He's actually been sprinting and running a bit!

90. That with God all things are possible

91. That at any moment of any day of any circumstance, I can run to my hiding place where my Father in heaven holds me.

92. That I will soon be caffeine free!

93. That God is contiunally leading me to higher ground, to deeper levels and to new freedoms!

94. That He loves me so much that He's not willing to leave me to die, which is what my flesh is made of

95. That I have brothers and sisters in Christ that pray for me, encourage me and I know are FOR me.

96. I love that I have opportunities to be there for them as well. To love and encourage them too!

97. Totally thankful for Morgan. My very very close friend that I've known since I was 5! God uses her all the time!!!!!! She encourages me and is FOR me too! She understands me. We've walked together for so long, I know that I don't have to explain a whole lot....she just knows! (looking forward to my 30th bday with yoU!!!)

98. My friend Steph. She has become so dear to me. Her heart is so good. She has so much love to give. She overflows with it. I am thankful to have her in my life because we've been through so much of the same things. Married young, a child with cerebral palsy and the death of our sons. I am so looking forward to building our friendship throughout the rest of our lives!

99. That I'm almost to 100 blessings!

100. That I have thanked the Lord for 100 things on this blog!

Missing my friends already!

Joe and I met an amazing family a couple of years ago. They started coming to our church. Over the last year, we really tied some strong strings of sweet fellowship. She is such an inspiration to me. Her faith blows me away! Their kids have become quite close with ours. Jacob and Noah played all the time.....

They left for Botswana yesterday....I can sense God's mighty hand on their lives right now....
Read this article to get to know them a bit. Click on the image.

Doing things God's way

His ways are higher and His thoughts above ours.....

Sometimes, I just don't like doing it God's way. I mean, I know the outcomes and even walking His way brings peace and joy even while you're walking it! But today, my flesh just doesn't want to take the high road.

God is into slow cooking, seasons of waiting, the law of reaping and sowing. Our society is into microwaves, credit cards and diet pills.

I guess I am thankful that God has laid a foundation for me that I know that pills, cards and microwaves reap nothing but pain and I just won't, refuse to go there. I know that in unseen ways I do go there. In my thoughts often, I'm looking for the quick fix. My flesh wants to just 'figure it out'. It seems so silly to try compared to the all knowing, creator of the universe!!!!

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (ATTICC)
the courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference....

Just as a side note, I LOVE the 12 steps! I went to AA and NA for years, had a sponsor to overcome my drug and alcohol addiction. The tools I recieved there still impact my life today after12 years of sobriety. ("Go take some P.I.!!!) If anyone knows what I'm talking about, I'll give you a prize! I'll give you a hint. It's an abbreviation of one of the steps

Blessings 72-80 ... God

72. I am thankful that God knows what's best. He IS love. That He is perfect and flawless. That He is good and always right. That I don't need to figure it all out. I can just leave my life at the foot of the cross. God give me the grace to do that and everything that means.

73. I am thankful that while we were still sinners, He died for us. That even in our sinful, dark state, He loves us just as we are.

74. I am thankful that God can take water and turn it into wine. He can get water from a rock, that He can send manna from heaven to feed us. That He can make us new creations, make the blind to see, the lame walk, the dead rise again.

75. I am thankful that there is hope at all times, no matter how dark, no matter how dry, no matter how hard or deep you are. His purposes prevail, and they are to prosper us.

76. I am thankful that He has given us the ability through His strength to be content in whatever circumstance. Whether hungry or full, we can be at peace and in His secret place for refuge.

77. I am thankful that He is to be made known to all. That it's not about me, it's about glorifying Him in each step we take. That this temporary home is only for a short while and that soon, we will be Home forever!

78. I am thankful for families. That we don't get to choose our moms, dads, sisters or brothers. That He has placed the lonely in families. He reveals pieces of Himself through living in our earthly families. He teaches us about unconditional love, grace and mercy and humility.

79. I am thankful that His grace is sufficent. That His strength is made perfect in my weakness. That I can do ALL things through Christ. That I am a new creation. That I am His child, I am holy and blameless in His sight. That He chose me before the creation of ALL the world.

80. I am thankful that all the good in me is cause He lives there. I am thankful that He has chosen my heart as His home and that He made a way to move in.

Blessings 64-71 Going for 1000!

64. I am thankful that Noah is coming home today! I miss him so much. sometimes you just need a break from someone to realize how much you appreciate them. All the little things that usually bug me, I'm missing! It's been a quiet week

65. I am so thankful that my mother in law has given Noah this opportunity to go on his first plane ride and is spending the week with him in BC.
66. I am thankful for Joe these days. Even though marriage is crazy hard sometimes, we still have 13 years of knowing eachother. He knows me so well. Becoming one flesh more and more.

67. I am thankful for the sun today. I am looking forward to taking my girls for a walk down by the river and buying them ice cream.

68. I am thankful that my house is reasonably clean. My whole upstairs at ONCE is a big deal. The only things that are priority and visible are: Upstairs bathroom, Noah's room and one load in the dryer!

69. My new neighbours. My last neighbour had her children taken away and her home turned into a crack house. I pray that God will build relationship with these new neighbours and that He would be known from the testimony from this home.

70. My two baby girls playing peacefully, laughing as I type.

71. I am looking forward to the AFTER affect of my workout I'm going to be doing as soon as I'm done this post. Not necessarily DOING the workout itself!

blessing 58-63

58. This song is still pivotal in my walk with my God. I return to the message He spoke to me, often. I love this song. It's called "even if" by Zoegirl

59. The message of the song is to keep running back to Him as many times as it takes. We will be doing this till the day we pass from this temporary home

60. The message that we will be fine. No matter the storm, the desert, the circumstance (read our profile!!!) He takes care of us!

61. He gives us sisters and brothers to walk with along the way. He blessed us with family. He never said we had to do it alone.

62. My sister. We are so close. When we were cheorographing this dance, we just sat and prayed. The Lord gave us prophetic pictures of how to dance each line. The armor of God at the end came to us both in our prayer time.

63. Without God, nothing is possible....BUT WITH HIM ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE <><

1000 blessings (37-50) FAMILY

37. My Caleb man. He lives with us all still. He brought us so many things. His quiet and sometimes loud gentle spirit was such a calming for us. If you could take yourself away from the world and come into his for just a moment, you'd enter into a heavenly place where Jesus was close and Caleb was worshiping and there was just a peace that you couldn't explain....I love him and can't wait to see him again.




38. My girl is talking! After having a child that was limited in so many ways, I don't take these things for granted. Thank you for a healthy baby girl!

39. My faithfulness. She has such a unique presence in this house. I know that she isn't wired like the rest of us and she does quite well at dealing with all of us crazy people!

40. Isaiah the pisaiah the sourie. She is such a help. she loves to help me find order....which this family needs so much! She stays focused on the task at hand and finds her own satisfaction in a job well done.

41. My son Noah, noah noah....His heart is so good. I can't imagine him intentionally being mean or wanting to hurt someone. His passion for things is something we all need. I pray that he will become all that God intends for him.

42. My son Caleb. He was an angel sent to earth. He came with a purpose. To do the will of His Father. pure in heart and pure in spirit, Caleb lives in our hearts still.

43. My hubby, Joe. We are so different. Last night, I was amazed how God saw how we would grow and mature from eachother. He spurs me to be a better person, more patient, more steady, more logical rather than so emotional.

44. My mom. Tonight, I saw her laying on her couch so tired and sick. I take her for granted. How much she loves my kids as her own, how giving she is....I love her with all my heart

45. My dad. God is so at work in his life. I know that it's up and down for him, but he has come to know the Father more and more. He has learned to come just as he is and sit at his father's feet.

46. My sister. The definition of a true friend. I can trust her. She has my best interest at heart. She loves me, for me. I can be me and that's enough....even if I laugh at the draperies in Walmart and speak with silly accents infront of certain people....that's okay.

47. My brother in law. My sister's hubby. The spaz of the family. He's so great for us. We've never had a spaz.....I mean-a productive one....LOL. He gets things done and helps to encourage us all to face our fears. Since my sis has been with him, she has only changed for the better. I love him. If I could have picked a brother, he would be the perfect one!

48. My mother in law. I honestly can't sum up all that this woman is. Again, another odd match-her and I....but God has made the two of us close. We are so different, yet we learn and grow from eachother. She invests in our kids, loves them so much....we are so blessed.

49. My sis in law. We've had our bumps. God knew what he was doing when He matched me to the Waldherr's. She is so extremely compassionate. She has a special gift to feel what others are going through and she responds with such kind care. I wish I could be as selfless as she is.


50. My father in law. I've never met anyone like him before! He values family and is a giving man. I'm hoping to join him in his passion for running. He has invited me to go on a 5 km run this fall. Here is this 68 year old man able to run farther and faster than me!!! GO DAD!

51. My niece and nephew. Jonah ponah sonah conah lonah. So special to me since she was in mommy's tummy! I honestly honestly see her as my own daughter. My blood, so close to me....her destiny is so amazing. I can't wait to see what God does in her life. Daniel paniel.....what can I say....he's AWESOME! I've never loved another boy as much as him (other than my 2 sons of course) He captures me. He steals my heart. I just sit and stare in awe of this little man....

ball workouts

This one above is me and my sis's fav! We do this one almost everyday. It works the calves, hams, quads, abs and bum. What you do is start with the first pic, then roll your legs into your bum. The ball rolls with you and you squeeze your butt and calves. Then roll back out to starting postition. Keep your butt off the floor the whole time! To make it harder, lift one leg.








This one is the "tick tock" Works your inner thighs, abs and outer thighs. Move the ball from side to side with control.






This one is way harder than it looks. Works the inner and outer thigh and obliques. Do 3 sets of 10 or 15.



This next one is the ball pass. I do a different variation of it, what I do is look at the last pic. I have the ball between my legs. then I have two 5 lbs weights in each hand. As I lift my legs up, I lift my arms up from the sides. The weights touch at the top. This one looks fun, I should try it! I'm sore after this one almost everytime.






The famous plank. I've been doing the planks on the floor, but on the ball is way harder! The sound of a 30-40 hold in this pose sounds simple until you do it! I do 3 sets of 30-40 sec holds.




Thank you for joining me on "On the Ball with Carebear" We will be back after this short commercial break! LOL

1000 blessings (56 and 57)

56. WOW!! God takes my breath away! I was outside in my backyard tonight. I was just telling him how beautiful He is.....and this HUGMUNGOUS shooting star shot across the sky! It was so bright, so long, so spectacular, I gasped!!!

57. He is a personal God. He gave that shooting star just for me. Just to tell me how much He believes in me and how proud He is of me. Today is my 6 months. He wanted me to remember this day. How cool is that!!!

Today is a half a year!!!!!

Half a year ago today was the last time I threw up my food on purpose!!!!!!!

I remember saying to a travelling buddy a couple of years ago, "someday, I will be able to say that I haven't purged in 6 months!.....someday....."

And I can say it today!!!!!!!!!

Praise God! He is worthy!!! He is able!!! He is GOD!!!!

1000 blessings (51-55)

I have written a post on the blessings of family. That one was written BEFORE this one. But I feel led to share this one first. So the numbers will be a bit off....

51. I am encouraged. I have been keeping a journal of my workouts and run times and miles. I decided to add it all up today. Since March 12 of this year, I have ran 63 KM and a total of 7 hours! WOW....That just encourages me. A marathon is classified as 26.2 miles (which is 42.1 KM. I have ran more than a marathon! (not all at once....but I DON'T CARE!) plus, I know that I haven't written down EVERY run, so I'm sure there's more KM's than that!

52. I am following the Lord's lead in just laying down my hopes and dreams more. I am able to enjoy the summer without getting as ansy about things not getting done.

53. Our baby duck is in the forestry farm zoo barn and is doing well.

54. We are going to the paddling pool today!!!

55. "All I ever have to be is what You've made me any more or less would be a step out of your plan, as you daily recreate me, help me always keep in mind, that I only have to do what I can find".......(Amy Grant's song that I've been soaking in lately)